They haven’t seen each other for six hundred cups of bitter coffee. Millions of thoughts, outstanding and mediocre, have been blown away wastefully by the wind and carried high amid the dreaming spires of hopes and frustrations. Now he feels that time has played some wicked game with him, and he is no longer sure whether his senses are his own or he has been lured into experiencing them against his will…
He sniffed, desperately trying to make use of all his china lexicon with blue fringe with futile efforts to explain himself to himself. He definitely needed an assistant-interpretess who could turn his fragments of sentences into something understandable and tangible. For a long time he had known, now he did not and the spires beckoned threatening to turn out to be Mara-like.
It happened when he was walking down his favourite street – his thoughts in the sky, his feet on the ground, his body balancing somewhere amidst. It was one of the walks he took a delight in – self-examination, fatigue and the dumb cries art loudly. His muscles vibrated in sweet trembling, his eyes radiated joy, as if he anticipated something beautiful to bring light into his outspirited world of obscurity.
From the very early days he knew exactly what the work was, the sacred toil.
Vermillion curtains hide the irresistible – every ruffle underlines the whimsical nature of desire – the wavy outlines are every bit attractive – they appeal to your senses and you can’t help yielding to the dark red wild temptation setting to flames your profoundest sensations. Byron’s rhymes would lie down and not die, would sleep on the scarlet silky sulky sawdust and watch their rotten rot visions in their dreamless cinnabar slumbers. Awaken soul-shaken artists would letter blackly heartbleeding reading matter – no matter if bleeding – to shape rouge savage wine, a bursting fountain of yearning in a single goblet and let it flow – a crimson flower on a crimson table-cloth – a symbol of immense power.
A power to delay a Doomsday, which is rightfully hanging, is it, not, just standing there, counting, making mistakes, forgetting in her trade mark pre-dancery affectation. Leaning over our yesly paradise – she! green-clad goddess – o! ginger! Yes, yes, yes, she’s gone, I said, not for good at all, will pour that tinto good for me. I will. The cemetry of cigarette-stubs would cry over the departure – no more smoke: the ashes are dead white: don’t look into my eyes – they’d give away the yes! I look straight into the face of a back, back! in an after-dancery mood may well be. The eagless passes by elegantly – rossa! rossa! – but the only joy streams from the verdant deity – hellenized? yes! o ginger!
In lindens’ shade, in the heart of the right fierce past with a liberated tit in one hand and a glass in the other, all foggy and blonde. Would. Wish we had more geld in our pockets to let it go on and on – o, merry times – blessed times for floundering in the beauty – eau de la vie, yes and yes and one more yes to top it off!
12. 12. 2012
Traces of the leaves, which once embellished dreary pavements of the city, but had long been blown away by November, now caught my attention with their clear-cut contours. The grown-misted matter and so does temporality, and fate… fate writes novels, accidents should in fact consider putting its quill to paper and write short stories unlike instantaneous thoughts that do living.
Thus, those leaf-stamps contained more divine sense than those pedestrians who rushed somewhere absorbed in their routine that squeezed the entire being out of them. Pedestrians pass, timeish, and an endlessly tiny part of them and the surroundings is reminiscent, isn’t it, it is.
Maybe for that reason I took such a fancy to those used-to-be-leaves – they had history, they became part of eternity. Caught it? no, too young to catch, precious memories don’t pile up in my, his head yet, too good, too early. Whenever, wherever… Shocks my ear. Amargo – not for every auricula. A chimerical ear on a roof in Barcelona would hear it properly and cheer the sensual spectacle right, it deserves.
With these thoughts in mind I stroll on when suddenly the boulevard ends – just in due time for me to have an admiring look at the sky above my head. And then I downwards cast me eye, the sky domes the beauty and incarnates it itself.
Such valuable moments are carved in our hearts forever – as if you take a photo with your inner vision. Never will it go wrong once you’ve agreed upon perceiving easiness in the hardest of ways.
November 22, 2012
A leaf drooped and then seemed to have made no effort to break away and fall before them with such an instant of effrontery. The poplar was not to blame for that – the leaf should have been more faithful to the branch it had always stemmed from and could have stemmed from for tree-time to come, had it not been for its wildeish yielding-to-temptation philosophy which eventually led it to falling victim to ever-seducing wind. Good leaf! escaped freedom, well done! They walked on.
Naughty leaf! How dared it distract them from their mental brooding! At heart, the poor fellow enabled them to trump up a proper excuse not to brood for a while. So they hit upon whiling away their time under the poplar – the crowns of their heads leaning against the trunk – them taking a mirror posture. Not that they were benefitting sitting like that, but something could definitely come down like a bolt from the blue, from the tree.
– Like an apple on Newton?
– No, mate, it’s a poplar!
April 11, 2012
Angels will cry. And wine, weeping over mistakes I won’t regret, o’er unmistakes. Angels will disapprove of my wry… words. Whip it away from me and I’ll fade, following it, followed by you.
And yet angels will forgive me. No, they will not. It was a blunder… unforgivable. Nah, nah, it’s just in no shape or form that uncommitted stands any chance to be unforgiven.
Any way out? – madeira, please! One, two, three and four, my pacific stream of quietude is flowing and don’t you call a dam! The nectar of the colour of a golden harp flowing down my dry… throat. Goat, she-goat, no angs and easy. Angst! Angst! – complicated! Like garter and stockings, involved? With a bunch of arum lilies involved! And that’s what it requires – that and to dare. Easy – when? In retrospective. Nah, in perspective! It burns and is burning, wish I had something else to light. And yet it will never get extinguished.
Out of time to grab all my belongings and leave for that complicated. Out of eternity to live for that complicated. Chasing a hand of the clock for incomplete. And yet complete. Ah no, nay, never – to be completed.
March 26, 2012
Hoggish sun, stealing from me my skittish and jocose, womanlike shadow. Angelic cumuli… floating in the lazuline sea. Gently carried by ever-caressing Zephyrus. No names, no aliases – to be, to be!
Puff-puff – the cherubim have thinned away. They’ve gone, they’ll come – the opposites remain. The delicate bedsheet-white flakes will soon grow into majestic clouds to clad the empyrean. They might fall down afterwards to match every empire, like a man off a zebra. Off the one with mocha stripes. El signo de la vida, of proper life.
When nothing can be juxtaposed, life has its taste. Mmm… delicious.
March 24, 2012
That day the sky was intensely blue. And the smoke would contrast the future. There would appear its signs – amidst the twin-buildings opposite our glassy refuge. And it hung low and multi-storiedly, concrete, yet abstract. Then it would ascend, slowly, lazily, up and away. So cocky, nippling out, it pushed itself to do its best to make its way. Towards the azure projection of my inflamed soul, deep in its drowsy stillness. Mine turned into a mirror, to reflect it back into the stream of wheels. Both of us imbibing soothing salvatory mate, sipping at leisure the bebida through obscurely carved bombillas – slurp-slurp – who’s up there?
– Well, well, burlesque cirri seducing volcanoes, I guess.
March 19, 2012